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Mom Keeps Her Promise

Each year I visit Costa Rica for many reasons.  For me it is a spiritual experience to be surrounded by nature and away from the complexities of American life.  Part of the spirituality comes from a promise my Mom made to me before she passed.  She made me promise to continue my trips because I came home lighter and happier.  Then she promised to send the butterflies so I would know she was with me.

Every year we both fullfill our promises.  Last year I was blessed with a pair of Blue Morpho butterflies that spent time with me in Curu National Wildlife Reserve.  Then again in November for my birthday an injured butterfly kept me company at The Bakery.  This year Mom outdid herself!!!  While hiking in Cabo Blanco my friend and I experienced a mass of butterflies that surrounded us.  There were at least 100 of these beautiful creatures gently flying around us and it was the most beautiful thing I have ever experienced.  I have seen pictures of large masses of butterflies but to experience one was simply magical. I felt like my Mom was standing right beside me and it brought me to tears.  I could feel the beauty of her soul and feel her amazing energy as it surrounded me.  It was simply breathtaking!!

Just prior to this experience I was asking Mom for her help.  My friend was in Cabo Blanco for the first time and wanted to see the monkeys so badly.  We had made it about two thirds of the way through the reserve and still not seen any animals.  I  asked for her to let my friend see the magic of this place and the monkeys.  Not only did she keep her promise to me, but just around the corner we came upon a family of monkeys.  My friend was so excited to finally see the monkeys and it was beautiful to see her reaction.

I am so grateful to have the ability each year to make this journey.  It keeps me connected to my Mom but at the same time allows me to let go a little more.  This year in April she will be gone three years.  It’s hard to believe but I know she is with me each day.

Thank you Mom for your beautiful soul and for always looking after me…even now.

~Pamela

Christmas Spirit…Everyday

The holidays can be a difficult time for many of us who are missing loved ones who have passed.  If you take a moment to just be you can feel their presence. Christmas Day for me isn’t about fancy presents, religion, or decorations.  For me, Christmas Day is about putting aside your everyday routine to spend time with family and friends.  It’s about enjoying the people in your life, both past and present, with honesty and compassion.  

I am filled with such gratitude today for all the amazing people in my life.  There are so many people who encourage and support me in all of my journeys.  These people have been such a blessing to me and I want to take a moment to say thank you.  

On this special day, take a moment to be grateful for all those who have touched your life.  We all need amazing people in our lives because they keep the light bright and make the world a better place to live.

Happy Holiday to you all!  My wish for you is happiness, peace and love for the coming year.  May you recognize the amazing in yourself and those who surround you!

Be happy and well.

~Pam

 

A Spiritual Birthday Gift

 

 

A Spiritual Birthday Gift

Butterflies have always been magical to me because they are so free and beautiful. In 2012 my Mom told me: “Promise me something, that you will go to Costa Rica next year for me. I will not be here but I will send all the butterflies and tell them to visit my beautiful girl so that you know I am with you.” She kept that promise and on my last day of vacation I was greeted by an amazing, deep yellow butterfly. I knew immediately that it was her and she brought such a variety of friends with her. It is a memory I cherish every day that allowed me to truly grieve for her and let go.

This November visit was extra special and reinforced my Mom’s presence is with me all the time. My birthday is in November and my Mom always made it so special. I miss getting a card from her the week before my birthday and her insisting that we have cake and ice cream to celebrate. Two things that I took for granted when she was here and now I would give anything to have. But today, as I sit eating breakfast in Costa Rica, there are many butterflies fluttering about. I am taken by their grace and beauty as my heart fills with love from my Mom. I look down to see a beautiful orange butterfly struggling to fly and realize that it has a broken wing. I reach down to pick her up so she is out of foot traffic and she eagerly climbs onto my hand. What an amazing feeling to be able to hold one of these magical beings! She spent an hour with me while I ate my breakfast and checked my messages – a birthday gift from my Mom. As I was leaving The Bakery I tried to place her safely in the flowers but she clung to my finger. Finally she moved to the flower and I said goodbye, my heart filled with love and joy from the experience.

What an amazing experience to feel the love of a tiny little being. My day was extra beautiful from that moment on and I am so grateful to now have that memory. I am also grateful to have that feeling of my Mom joining me for a part of my day in a way that I could touch and feel.

When we truly believe in the power of positive, beautiful things happen. Always believe in the greater good of the world and you will experience pure, honest love in places you would never expect.

Thank you Mom for being present in spirit and in a form that I could touch. It means more than anyone could ever know.

Have a Beautiful Day!! ~Pamela