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A Spiritual Birthday Gift



A Spiritual Birthday Gift

Butterflies have always been magical to me because they are so free and beautiful. In 2012 my Mom told me: “Promise me something, that you will go to Costa Rica next year for me. I will not be here but I will send all the butterflies and tell them to visit my beautiful girl so that you know I am with you.” She kept that promise and on my last day of vacation I was greeted by an amazing, deep yellow butterfly. I knew immediately that it was her and she brought such a variety of friends with her. It is a memory I cherish every day that allowed me to truly grieve for her and let go.

This November visit was extra special and reinforced my Mom’s presence is with me all the time. My birthday is in November and my Mom always made it so special. I miss getting a card from her the week before my birthday and her insisting that we have cake and ice cream to celebrate. Two things that I took for granted when she was here and now I would give anything to have. But today, as I sit eating breakfast in Costa Rica, there are many butterflies fluttering about. I am taken by their grace and beauty as my heart fills with love from my Mom. I look down to see a beautiful orange butterfly struggling to fly and realize that it has a broken wing. I reach down to pick her up so she is out of foot traffic and she eagerly climbs onto my hand. What an amazing feeling to be able to hold one of these magical beings! She spent an hour with me while I ate my breakfast and checked my messages – a birthday gift from my Mom. As I was leaving The Bakery I tried to place her safely in the flowers but she clung to my finger. Finally she moved to the flower and I said goodbye, my heart filled with love and joy from the experience.

What an amazing experience to feel the love of a tiny little being. My day was extra beautiful from that moment on and I am so grateful to now have that memory. I am also grateful to have that feeling of my Mom joining me for a part of my day in a way that I could touch and feel.

When we truly believe in the power of positive, beautiful things happen. Always believe in the greater good of the world and you will experience pure, honest love in places you would never expect.

Thank you Mom for being present in spirit and in a form that I could touch. It means more than anyone could ever know.

Have a Beautiful Day!! ~Pamela

Bringing the Positive out of Hiding

I saw this the other day and jotted it down not knowing why until now.

“At times the world may seem an unfriendly and sinister place, but believe that there is much more good in it than bad.  All you have to do is look hard enough, and what might seem to be a series of unfortunate events may be the first steps of a journey.” ~Lemony Snicket

Let’s face it, life happens and sometimes it’s hard to dig deep enough to find the positive – even for me.  When we take the risk to open our heart to another we also take the risk of heartache when life happens and things don’t go as you wished.  At those times it can be so difficult to remember that there is more good than bad in your life and the world.  When we get hurt it seems a natural defense to lash out at the person that hurt you, it makes you feel better.  BUT…

What if you look at this hurt as the first step of a new journey?  What if the Universe is trying to tell you that there is something better for you?  And what if you learn a lesson from it all that makes your life a little bit better?

I’m not going to sugar coat things and say it’ll be easy because I know from experience that matters of the heart never are.  We will react and say things we shouldn’t because we are hurt.  Go ahead and cry, yell, break plates – yes break plates, it works for me every time!  Feel what you feel because it’s yours.  And when you have gotten all that negative out, take a deep breath and smile.  Smile because it will do two things:  (1) Force your body to feel happy  (2) Give you the boost you need to begin to get over it and begin your next journey.

When life hands you the not so good turn it around and find the positive in it.  Remember that you are not alone in your heartache and we all experience similar things.  Feel what you feel and use that to move toward the happy things you want.

Have a beautiful day! ~Pamela